alela diane is quite lovely

she reminds me oh so much of my mama. when she was my age.

in my head

in my head right now:

- i am young. less so in my eyes than in others.
-i miss the sea and the tree.
- jazzy bluesey piano music
- i am behind and i am scared. got lots to do.
- i make a lot of mistakes.
- i do alot of things well too
- its real hot out!
- i am happy
- i am practicing patience and discipline, as always, and trying not to want more
-i like when things fall into place, they always do
- i am poor
- i want to talk. i want to share everything.
-i have amazing friends. you know who you are!
-i am tryng to put the following to music. its taking awhile to get it right:

THIS IS FAITH
To walk where there is no path
To breathe where there is no air
To see where there is not light-
This is Faith.

To cry out in the silence,
The silence of the night,
And hearing no echo believe
And believe again and again-
This is Faith.

To hold pebbles and see jewels
To raise sticks and see forests
To smile with weeping eyes-
This is Faith.

To say: "God, I believe" when others deny,
"I hear" when there is no answer,
"I see" though naught is seen-
This is Faith.

And the fierce love in the heart,
The savage love that cries
Hidden Thou art yet there !
Veil Thy face and mute Thy tongue
yet I see and hear Thee, Love,
Beat me down to the bare earth,
Yet I rise and love Thee, Love !"
This is Faith.

a poem by

Amatu'l-Baha
Ruhiyyih Khanum

snapshot thought

there's alot happening.

things in my head/someday i will elaborate on the following:

-"sodom, south georgia" by iron and wine
-oneness
-today, i am piano music
-i am a woman
-people should be celebrated
-i am learning patience
-i am introspective
-i am a stream of thought, making circles, connections, networks, synapses
-i am a social being
-i am reaching out
-i will not want
-i analyze
-i am strong, but i am not strength
-i have light, but i am not light
-i can't illuminate darknss with more darkness; i will oppose hate with love, oppose ignorance with knowledge
-i love to see spiritual principles expressed in nature.
-i love
-photography
- i want to take more psych and religious studies classes
-evolution: of man, spirit, religion, relationships
-making music is like making keys.... or ladders
-we're not so different, you and
- i am searching but i am not lost

i am like the seasons

wow. what is wrong with me? ok, i think i snapped out of it.... just about. i was just reviewing past posts.
1.) i didnt know i had so many!
2.) 2008 was more fun/ more uplifting time of post-age. im gonna bring that back! i need to be more fun.. for everyone's sake!
3.) yes! remembering two good ones:
great things and sea glass

welcome to the jumble

in the jumble of things and reoccurring stressors and insecurities, it is the true friends that bring you back down to a calmer place. a calmer pace. a more moderate, logical state where equilibrium is closer to your grasp. things become more clear, more real, more visible. thank you so so soooooo much! i am very blessed.
lovingly,
lily

my providence

Lots of random thoughts circulating, so here I am.

Some reflections:
* I look around and I feel like I'm missing out. There are so many beautiful people I see pass by on the street, in pictures, in classes and i want so much to know them. to hear their story. to ask them, "are you truly happy?" And yet, I don't know them.
* Am I missing opportunities? There are so many things I need to change. So may faults. One thing at a time.
* The Hidden Words of Baha'u'llah ( some below).


Some of my favorites that are helping me through:
From the Arabic:

#51. O SON OF MAN!

My calamity is My providence, outwardly it is fire and vengeance, but inwardly it is light and mercy. Hasten thereunto that thou mayest become an eternal light and an immortal spirit. This is My command unto thee, do thou observe it.

#4. O SON OF MAN!

I loved thy creation, hence I created thee. Wherefore, do thou love Me, that I may name thy name and fill thy soul with the spirit of life.


#11. O SON OF BEING!

Thou art My lamp and My light is in thee. Get thou from it thy radiance and seek none other than Me. For I have created thee rich and have bountifully shed My favour upon thee."


#8. O SON OF SPIRIT!

There is no peace for thee save by renouncing thyself and turning unto Me; for it behoveth thee to glory in My name, not thine own; to put thy trust in Me and not in thyself, since I desire to be loved alone and above all that is.

#12. O SON OF BEING!

With the hands of power I made thee and with the fingers of strength I created thee; and within thee have I placed the essence of My light. Be thou content with it and seek naught else, for My work is perfect and My command is binding. Question it not, nor have a doubt thereof

#17. O SON OF MAN!

Be thou content with Me and seek no other helper. For none but Me can ever suffice thee.

From the Persian:

#32. O BEFRIENDED STRANGER!

The candle of thine heart is lighted by the hand of My power, quench it not with the contrary winds of self and passion. The healer of all thine ills is remembrance of Me, forget it not. Make My love thy treasure and cherish it even as thy very sight and life.


These words speak so loud and so deep. I recently realized that sometimes I simply don't have enough strength within myself and at these times, I call on something much bigger than myself. So, of course, it is these difficulties that draw us closer to The Friend. I am not ashamed. I am thankful. I am empowered.
My mom told me that in Chinese the word for "crisis" is the same as that for " opportunity." I do believe, in everything there is divine wisdom and perfection.

YA BAHA'U'L-ABHA! ( "Glory of the Most Glorious" in Arabic)

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And HAPPY NAW-RUZ! to new beginnings, freshness, and rebirth!

captivated

im in this mood to listen to soft and slow love-song. which is kinda embarrassing and not usually "me". i am generally against this genre because i can feel pop music filling my head with nonsense. silly ideas about the world. not to mention the lack of creativity. but this is not the case with " the prayer". what a classic!!!

i fell in love with this katherine mcphee and andre bocelli duet on a program on PBS over winter break and i was fascinated and captivated. in my current state, i remembered it.

the best i could find is this mp3 stream.

***********************dedicated to all things that glorify the value of life and love and real beauty.