The answer isn’t finding the right person, it’s becoming the right person.

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

-Rumi

bombay bicycle club

i can never resist sweet and simple harmonies. that which causes me to close my eyes and sway. feels like arms around me.



Taking the second plan,
Begging to understand,
Life of a selfless man.
‘Cause out of all the flaws I’ve stumbled on;
It’s the hardest one to focus on
It’s the hardest one to focus on.
Why are you calling up?
Isn’t one enough?
Giving up all she’s got.
Out of all the flaws I’ve stumbled on.
It’s the hardest one to focus on.
It’s the hardest one to focus on.

splurge

got 'em! and im excited about how narrow and pointy the toe is on these rare docs. hopefully they look good in person.

i am lucky

this i know. i have really incredible friends and no need to want. also, i am going backpacking for the first time this weekend! WOOO!

fears less

i feel i am in the midst of my own paradigm shift. my tastes and attitudes have changed in a noticeable way. and ive been more fearless. my brain has emphasized a strong attracted to the strange and the weird.


what im diggin:

1. ellie goulding

and i have been inspired by her hairstyle.

2. glitter glitter and rings from ebay and thifting.
it all started with a single gold shirt, that i wore to a few dance parties. now ive got sequence glitter gold galore!
exhibit A:

i have actually been thinking about my style which has been modified along with my recent change of taste. i have been really into contrast: red, black, white and flowy material. hard and soft looks.

3. sleigh bells
i have a huge crush on this band. i like how they do things. i like how they make me want to move. despite the low sound quality ( but they do love distortion), this is my fav video of them. the song "ring ring" is also great.


4. pie
will be making my second, of this summer, soon.
this is peach blackberry:








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in other news, i am going backpacking ( with one of my bests) over labor day weekend and im SO EXCITED!

i flit, i float

release me

once in a while, i think about a particular recent affair and i lose my breath as a wave on anxiety takes hold of my body. i feel clenched. i find it a bit shocking how such things have the ability to affect me physically. it's been hard to let things go when no closure is offered, but i'm almost there.

a couple months ago when my stress from this was at peak levels, i was obsessed with the below video.

"This video has lots of fun dancing but also strikes an eerie note, since it focuses on the ideas that a) lots of people dance alone b) in their underwear and c) not many people look beautiful dancing, especially once they’re slowed down, sped up, or frozen. The result, however, is quite beautiful: Intimate, lonely, and still fun. The video was directed by DANIELS (Daniel Scheinert and Dan Kwan)."
-stereogum

physical expression of nonphysical concepts or emotions, in the form dance, is incredibly striking and beautiful to me. i often regret not pursuing dance past my two years of ballet from age 6-8. but this video gives me hope in some strange way. i love the raw, awkward, honest passion of the dancing in the video. for some reason i identify with that. there is something freeing about intense motion ( the guy wearing the gray thermal, in the video). or maybe i have just watch it too many time (probably about 40 times, no joke).

anyway, ENJOY! its kinda weird. but so is life. weird is real. embrace it.

Underwear by FM Belfast (Music Video) from Daniel Scheinert on Vimeo.