the kindest voice

she is the cutest. and her voice is as sweet and natural as breathing.

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genius next door

someday, i will wake up.

i am usually very good at keeping it together. remaining unaffected by turmoil around or disappointment within. unaffected by transitory things and focusing on my goal to love and serve humanity.

but some times, usually while studying for an calculus, ochem, or biochem exam, i get caught up in me. i ask myself why? why did i subject myself to one of the hardest science majors possible at the expense on my delicate GPA? and what? what am i doing? it is so hard to be hopeful and sure when your performance is so below your expectation for yourself.

this quarter is half over and i've barely had time to take a deep breath. i will be graduating next year and, as excited as i am, that scares me.

i need patience, peace. steadfastness. focus. in every sense on every words.
i will always be comforted by the fact that when i need them most, the perfect prayers seem to reach me when i search for them.

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O kind Lord! O Comforter of anguished hearts! Send down Thy mercy upon us, and Thy grace, bestow upon us patience, give us the strength to endure. With Thy generous hand, lay Thou a balm upon our sores, grant us a medicine for this never-healing woe. Console Thou Thy loved ones, comfort Thy friends and handmaids, heal Thou our wounded breasts, and with Thy bounty's remedy, restore our festering hearts.
With the gentle breeze of Thy compassion, make fresh and green again these boughs, withered by autumn blasts; restore Thou to flourishing life these flowers, shrivelled by the blight of bereavement.
With tidings of the Abha Paradise, wed Thou our souls to joy, and rejoice Thou our spirits with heartening voices from the dwellers in the realm of glory. Thou art the Bounteous, Thou art the Clement; Thou art the Bestower, the Loving.

-Bahiyyih Khanum

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regina spektor. so many great, emotionally-charged songs. some of my favorites on my mind right now :
"chemo limo"
"somedays" and
"genius next door"
these songs, her voice, her passion persuade me to tears. she is unafraid.



so i am pushing through. here i go. wish me luck.

grace in your heart and flowers in your hair

warm skin. peaches. pastels. pie. freckles. strolls. salt and sand. twirls. braids. blooms. bare feet. baby animals.

like a dream

slightly wacky but also so right. see more here.

don't mind if i do:

additonally: welcome, Spring! glad to have you with us.

uh HELLO!!!

uhhhh HELLO! the following is exactly what it appears:




BANJO UKULELE!!! areyouserious?! two instruments that i desire in one travel-friendly size?! yes please. now, who will lend me $300+?

the One you're running to

random connected some dots:

i believe we are all on different spiritual paths to the same Source.

i have been obsessed with the song "Dents" by The Acorn as of recent. it makes me want to close my eyes and sway. i really like the line "dying leaves need time to fall" and when they belt " let me be the one your running to."

this lead me to think about relationships. how we always want some one to comfort us, to run to. we are afraid of being alone.

we forget that we are not alone. sometimes, things you chase, things you want, lead you astray. off-course. in the future, rather than running toward each other, i'd like to tread together on that path. living the same and loving the same.

still, this is a beautiful and sweet song:

hibernates

this music vid has all the right things:

alliteration

slo mo running

trees

fields of gold

sun settings

suits

beards

fun!

and my head told my heart, " let love grow."

and my heart told my head, " this time know."